Today marks the day when my husband was able to tell me that he too had something wrong that contributes to our infertility. I feel as if the whole world doesn't want us to have a baby. I'm beyond frustrated and sad. Each day seems to take away one sparkle from the peephole of hope I have left. My husband has what's called a varicocele. It can be repaired but has little chance of improving fertility. Our best shot is IVF and insurance doesn't cover that. To me it seems crazy to say that only a month ago I was the problem but that it could be treated and the out look was good. I haven't started my treatment yet since military doctors are slow, but now I should just skip that and jump straight to IVF??? WTF!!!