WARNING: This blog contains conversations about my life. It can be cruel but it's the truth from the way I percive it. I don't always use nice words and sometimes I share a little bit too much. I don't put on a happy face in the midst of hard times because that's what inspires others. If you have an issue please navigate away from this page now.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Infertile Myrtle

On Thursday, my husband made me call the GYN and move my apt. up. I hadn't had AF since May 4th. I went in this morning hopeful that we were going to run test and get things going. NOPE! I whizzed in a cup and we sat and talked about how AF operates. Come on! I gave the doc my symptoms and she said that in a week or so I should be able to come back and we will run more tests but most likely I have PCOS. YAY! NOT! I guess I'll be doing more research but I already know that I have one heck of an up hill battle to fight. Oh plus she told me that the Navy is providing us with some Awesome birth control called SEA DUTY! No duh lady! AND I got the talk about how "you're young, you shouldn't be so stressed. You should just have fun. You're in school focus on that. Going to school with a child is so much more difficult"...and on and on she went. Mind you this woman is in her late 40's and already has children, and her nurse was about to freaking pop! UGH! Had she even bothered to ask me she would know that I am going to be done with school very soon so that issue is gone. And the "why so stressed" question made me want to punch her. I mean HELLO.. I'm a wife, not only that I'm married to the NAVY, the US NAVY where they threaten our pay on a regular basis, I just moved out of my comfort zone only 4 months ago and I'm Infertile. I figured this could take a few years so why not get started now. Eh, maybe she's right, maybe I should wait until I'm done with school.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Home is Where the Heart is

I've been missing my little man(nephew) alot this week. In fact, I've been missing home alot this week. I can't seem to feel at home here. I know I've got B and that helps more than anything but I'm still home sick. I can't stop thinking that back home, I'd have a job and in school where I'm comfortable and used to the way things are ran. Everything here is different; from the way the people talk to the way the colleges do things. I keep saying well if I go back there, I'd have a job and we wouldn't be struggling so much and the list goes on and on. The constant struggle I'm having about comparing this place to back home is tiring and needs to stop or I'll never feel at home here, much less any where the Navy sends me.

New subject:
After a long drawn out process, I'm back enrolled in college. I'm taking a full 13 credits this term. I haven't taken that much in about 2 years. Good news is I completely pay for tuition on financial aid. That's a relief. However since I was a transfer student, I have to pay for all my books upfront and get reimbursed later. All my books have to be ordered online and so instead of forking out near $400, I ordered each book from somewhere other than my schools website and saved $200. Yahoo!!! I ordered my books and they should be arriving any day now. I start classes on the 22nd. Wish me Luck!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Short and sweet little post because I'm SUPER excited. I FINALLY have an appointment for the GYN! YAY! It's been almost a year since I've started the "real" struggle. I call it "real" because we never used anything before so when we decided we wanted kids, we didn't have to change anything except paying more attention to when I ovulate. It's been one tough year trying to get my family Doc back home to refer me to the GYN and then once she did, I had to move. Now that I've gotten everything reestablished here, my PCM gave me a referral on day one. I'm so happy and excited to get the ball rolling. The appointment is made for Sep. 1 (earliest available.) YAY!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

As promised here is a weight loss update. I am often too busy to write on here every week so an update when I can is good enough for me. I now weigh 168 lbs. Went to the doctor to get my new patient work up and get some plantar warts removed from my driving foot. Even though 168 isn't as much as I would like it too be, I am happy with the progress. Weight loss is hard and doing it without any help from pills or a program other than the one this lady made up herself, is pretty impressive if you ask me. I'm down a total of 11 pounds so far. I have no idea what my goal is I just know I want to feel and look healthy. So raise a glass to less sugar and caffeine and more watermelon and celery. Yeah baby!

TTC Update: I'm not far along on the journey but I've now been given the official referal to see the GYN. There aren't any GYN's available to me on base so I have to wait for a letter to arrive in the mail and give me further instructions for making an appointment. I can't wait to get this ball started. I feel hopeful that we will find out what's wrong and we can move on from there. I'm hoping the letter will come within the next 2 days.